Thursday, June 27, 2013

"Psycological?"

I remember once telling you that both Old John and I had over time come to accept the fact that neither of us know everything, but that perhaps if we put our minds together we did.  Fortunately for John I know how to spell "psychological"!

And as to Elly's assertion that he may be right about my limiters being of a psychological nature, I may grudgingly agree.  But probably not in the way you may think.

The normal interpretation of "it's all in your head" would suggest that the ability to think positive and to achieve great things is due to a lack of self confidence, and/or, a willingness to mentally push through the tough times.

I know that's not the case with me.  I have proven it to myself time and time again.

That being said I know how powerful the mind/body connection is, and it is for that reason that I do not deny the psychological nature of my recent frustrations with my training and racing.

I believe however that it is one of those chicken and egg things.  In the reading that I have done it seems clear that in the case of most hard driven athletes the body gives out before the mind.  In other words you tend to keep going until something breaks!

That's where the psychological factor comes into play.  I'm pretty sure I'm a bit overtrained.  This as a result of my mind telling me time and time again to push harder when my body was telling me to rest.  It becomes a vicious psychological circle.  As my performances drop my mind says work harder.  I listen to my mind and my performances drop more, and my mind says work harder... etc. etc.

Case in point.  My race this past Saturday was a little disappointing.  So I raced harder on Sunday and was more disappointed.  I knew I had to take it easy on Monday but by Tuesday I was out hammering again, just to prove that the weekend races were flukes.  And prove it I did!  After my workout that day I was felling all pumped again.  Then guess what?  I went for my long run on Wednesday and I couldn't manage a freakin kilometre!  I was exhausted!!  For some reason I forced my self to do 11 kms anyway.  Eleven long, painful, counterproductive kilometres!  Just to prove to myself that I'm not a slacker.

It is definitely psychological!  I don't know how to listen to my battered 57 year old bag of bones!

In case you think I've invented this whole theory I want you to know that after a quick little 5 km run this morning I spent most of the afternoon at the book store researching.  I'm pretty confident in my story.

So where does that leave me today.  From my reading the research seems to indicate that recovery from serious overtraining can take months of reduced activity, more sleep, rigid diet etc.  Fortunately I believe I've caught it early enough.  One of the most prevalent symptoms of overtraining is an elevated heart rate and I can say with some certainty that I don't have that problem.  Even as I sit here and type my rate is under 50 bpm.  One symptom that I have experienced, and that my wife will attest to is a tendency to mood swings.  This one can be a bit deceiving however as a bit of grumpiness tends to come along with the extensive training regime, regardless of whether you are overdoing it.

I have actually been familiar with these common symptoms for years but today I read one reference that hit home with me because it is something that I never experienced before.  I have noticed for some time now that my heart rate while on my long runs seemed to be a bit low. Even in my half Ironman I was shocked to see that my average for the run was 126 bpm.  Quite frankly this was ridiculously low considering the way I was feeling.  Even despite the fact that I was taking walking breaks.

So there you have it.  I don't know if I've done a very good job of explaining it but after all, I don't know everything!

And my dear son Jon is marrying his precious Alisha this weekend so it's a good excuse to take it a bit easy for a few days.  The funny thing is that before my awakening I had decided that I could probably get a 170km ride and an 8 km run in on Saturday, and still manage to get to the church on time.  I have since decided that a nice little swim will suffice.

Oh and Elly this is too good not to share.  When I initially saw Old Johns spelling error I was undecided how to handle it so as to have the most fun with it.  After all he set himself up so badly it was almost painful.  In the end I was talking to him on the phone on another topic and I took the opportunity to tease him about it.  I also told him I wasn't gonna mention it on the blog because as I said to him and I quote, "I bet Elly notices it and yanks your chain about it"!  It was less than an hour later that you posted your comment and I can't even begin to tell you how smug I felt.  Thank you for that my dear sister....and thank you for continuing to take the time to read my drivel.  I love you to the moon and back!!

Love
Peter


Tuesday, June 25, 2013

"I Was First"

The first guy to put his bike on the rack that is.  After that it was all downhill!  Well actually it was rather flat and felt like uphill but regardless I sure didn't finish first.

I had to wait for a couple of days to blog about it as I was quite a bit discouraged by about 2:15 on Sunday afternoon. Actually I was already a bit discouraged by about 12:15 when I headed out on my run.

Up til then things had gone reasonably well considering the very difficult conditions.  My swim was as predictable as normal finishing at 40 minutes for the 2 kms.  My bike was indeed a bit slow considering a very flat course, but I put it down to the 30 deg temps, and the 30 km winds.

Immediately heading into the run I knew I was gonna struggle.  I decided right then to engage a run/walk strategy and that's how I plugged through the entire 21.1 kms.  I walked for one minute at every km marker, and it turned into a very long, painful 2 hours and a bit.  Last year I did the same run in 1:37!!!

In the end this years half Ironman was the slowest I ever did in an time of 5:44.  I was 139th overall and 6th out of 20 in my age group.  Last year I was 5:08 which put me 115th overall, and 4th out of 19.

After a couple of days of pondering I'm feeling a little better.  I was initially quite frustrated because I simply could not understand what went so wrong.  I know last year I had the race of a lifetime, but to be 36 minutes slower felt like a disaster.  I have since crunched the numbers and discovered that the overall average time of all participants was over 20 minutes slower than last year, no doubt due to the weather.  If I factor that in I can accept that it was simply a bad day, rather than a disaster.

I have managed to put away most of my fears which included things like not working hard enough, or working too hard, or not eating properly, etc etc.  I considered many changes for the next 8 weeks and then discarded every one of them.

It helped a bit that despite being very tired yesterday I had no aches and pains, and today I felt right back to normal.  I rode an easy 60 kms and then felt great on my 5K run. Game on!!

Love
Peter

Saturday, June 22, 2013

"Not Elated"

But not stressed either.  I was 3 mins slower than I was at this race last year and it was all on the run.  I felt fine up til that point, and then felt like crap for the entire 7.5 kms.  It's so hard to compare from one year to the next because it's hard to judge just how fresh you came into the race, particularly because I try to treat this weekend as a training event rather than a goal race.  That being said, the results don't really matter as long as I worked hard and learned something.  My time was 1:48 and change, and I finished 2nd out of 8 in my age group.  I'm okay with that.

Of course the results do matter if you were faster than last time!  I'm pleased to tell you that Old John was a huge 8 mins quicker than 2012! Way to go bro!

Tomorrow of course I get to do it all over again except that the distance triples. Half Ironman!  2000 metre swim, 90km bike and then a charming little 21.1 km run.  Last year I had the race of a lifetime and I'm not even gonna try to duplicate that.  Particularly since the weatherman is threatening wind, rain and very high humidity.  It would be totally counterproductive to kill myself and not be able to work hard  again next week.  My focus will be on having a very controlled bike ride such that I can run comfortably.  Time will tell, and I promise to let you know.

And for Roo.  I'm sitting in  Tim Hortons to write this post cause they got Internet.  McDonalds was too far away.  I had to buy a coffee.  Sorry, but the doughnut was great!!!

...and when I don't do well it's Gods fault...

"Providence has its appointed hour for everything. We cannot command results, we can only strive."---Mohandas Gandhi

Love
Peter

Sunday, June 16, 2013

"63 Days"

I thought maybe if I put it into days instead of weeks that it would sound longer, but if anything it sounds worse.  Yup only 9 weeks left til D-day!!  And I'm damn glad this is a recovery week because I am beyond tired.  Yesterday I did my usual long workout with the schedule calling for 160 kms on the bike followed by a 7 km run.  I managed the bike and 5 kms of the run, and today I couldn't even run 100 metres.  Next weekend I get to test my fitness with the double header race in Welland.

Anyway if you care to learn anything about the big race check out Ironman Mont Tremblant.  Everything you ever wanted to know including date, location etc.  If you bookmark it you will also be able to go back on race day for live tracking....63 days from today!!

Love
Peter

Saturday, June 8, 2013

"The Windmills Were Dead"

Well most of them anyway.  There were a few that were spinning lazily and I was relieved when I got to them to see that the bit of breeze there was, was indeed in my face.  It was this lack of wind that made the trip bearable today as it was cold and cloudy when I headed out at 9 am.  I don't know when the hell summer is coming but it sure wasn't today.  I had to wear gloves!!!!

But all that aside I was quite satisfied with my workout.  I have decided to not push myself quite as hard on my long days as I have in the past.  The experts seem to be okay with this, but whether it makes sense or not,  I simply need to take them a bit easier to keep the stress at a tolerable level.  I still averaged 30.7 kms/hr for the 150 kms, but more importantly I felt very good during the 6K transition run afterwards.  My long rides will continue to build by 10k each time and the run will go up 1K per week. Lets see how that works.

One thing that today's workout really hammered home was the significance of the bike ride in the whole scheme of things.  The way I felt when I headed out on my run today is exactly how I want to feel on race day, and that was exclusively because I kept my bike ride in check.  I am determined to make it so in Mont-Tremblant.  I do not want to ever again feel the way I did in Penticton last August.

Ten short weeks to go!  Oh, and a day!

And good one Elly!  I should have though of that.  I remember growing up thinking that suicide was no different than murder, but that was probably just the catholic in me.  I have since changed my opinion 100 percent.  I now believe that our own existence (mind/body/spirit) belongs to one else, and no one else has a right to tell us what to do with it.  Not even God!  But then again I don't think he/she would have an issue with it.  At least my God wouldn't.  

ride 150 kms, run 6 kms

"Keep passing the open windows"---John Irving

Love
Peter

Friday, June 7, 2013

"In The Groove"

For now at least.   I've been playing with my schedule and ever since my Sunday awakening  things have gone pretty well.  Monday I rode 60 kms and ran easy afterwards.  Tuesday became my long run day and I managed a slow but comfortable 30 kms in run/walk mode.  Wednesday I rode hard managing 20 kms at 35k/hr, plus a warm up and cool down.  I felt pretty good about that the day after a long run. Then yesterday I ran hills.  Today I swam long in my wetsuit, and after 3200 metres I was bored, but not tired.  So that makes tomorrow long ride day again and I will shoot for 150kms with a 5km run.  Sunday will become an easy day, and if all of that works out I will repeat the same schedule next week.  The following week will be a recovery week capped off by my triathlon double header in Welland.

And that's it.  I will definitely let you know how tomorrow goes.

"You cannot schedule death."---Paloma Faith

Swim 3.2 kms 1:02:23.  

Love
Peter

Sunday, June 2, 2013

"That Didn't Work!"

As soon as I got to the trails I knew it was a bad idea.  It was very muddy and combined with all of the tree roots it felt like dangerous territory.  The real problem however was that I was just so freakin tired I could barely lift my feet.  I decided that trails after my long ride is maybe not so smart.   I had forgotten how that feels the next day!  I went to the rubber track at the high school where it wouldn't hurt so much if I fell down.

I need to rethink my schedule.

Love
Peter


Saturday, June 1, 2013

"Let The Madness Begin"

Today was my first serious long ride and run, and my last words to Roo before I went out the door were, "there's no sane reason for doing this".

But it's either do it, or give up on the plan altogether and somehow that doesn't fit my personality.  So out I went into a very unpleasant wind to conquer the day!  And while it wasn't an overwhelming success it was also not a failure.  I went just over 140 kms in 4:38.  The first 70 kms into the wind used up all but 2 hours of that.  And while I wasn't overly enamoured by my time, I was pleasantly surprised when I headed out for my 5 km run to discover that I was still feeling pretty good.  That's really the important part anyway, and I ran the whole way.

So there will be 6 more of these with an increase of 10 kms each week culminating in 200 kms with a 10 km run 3 to 4 weeks before d-day. I will also squeeze the Welland race weekend in there which will be a Sat/Sun double header, with the Sunday race being a Half Ironman.   Let the madness begin!1

"You're only given a little spark of madness. You mustn't lose it."---Robin Williams

Love
Peter