Try this!
Get out your sharpest hunting knife and sharpen it some more, especially the point! Then heat the blade until it's red hot. Then with all the strength you can muster, grab it in 2 hands and drive it deeply into your soleus muscle!! (that's the inside muscle of your calf)
I've never done this myself but I'm pretty sure I now know what it would feel like. It was as if I had been shot. I literally fell to the ground clutching my leg.
My right calf had been twitching on and off for several kilometres but I have experienced that before, and it always remained just that. Twitching. So when it hit me I was in shock.
Sorry Michael I didn't mean to worry you. I'm sure it's gonna be just fine, it's only a matter of time. I can barely walk right now but with the right attention I hope that I'm back to running within a week.
My immediate frustration however was not with the pain. It was with the instant realization that the expectation that I had been building up for the last 2 1/2 hours had just evaporated.
It is not an exaggeration to say that I was crushed. I never really told anyone, even Roo, but I had a very good feeling about this race for some time. I had it in mind that I could maybe run faster than my first ever marathon of 18 years ago, and in actual fact I was on a pace to beat it by a lot. My 1994 Detroit marathon was 3:25:29 and I was on track for a sub 3:18!!! Although this is a very fast course (downhill), compare that to my spring marathon where I was just over 3:33.
Since any racing I have done over the last several years has been focused exclusively on Ironman preparation I never really tapered for any of them. This time I had rested well before the race, and that is one of the reasons I was cautiously optimistic about my potential for the day, and why I still felt so good at 32 kms.
No sir! Not this day!
Once I had gathered myself together at least physically, I had a decision to make. If I quit then, I had about a 4 km walk to the finish line. I knew that this was the smart thing to do. The sooner I got off my feet the better. But smart isn't part of my makeup, so after some stretching, and after the pain subsided, I decided I was gonna at least try to keep going. I managed about 100 metres of walking at which point I gave it up for good. I took my number off and started dragging my butt to the finish line. I was totally dejected. I probably walked for about 5 minutes, the whole time thinking about how I would word my explanation to those I would see after the race. I can tell you that when I hear other "quitters" rationalize their decision, I am usually a bit sceptical, and to be honest with myself I was gonna have to have this same attitude towards 'yours truly'.
...I put my number back on and rejoined the race....
After a period of awkward walking I tried a little shuffle and managed that for a minute. Back to walking, and then a little longer shuffle. The whole time I knew I was not doing my leg any favours, but by now a new determination had set in. After alternating walking and jogging several times I eventually managed some extended periods of the Terry Fox shuffle, and eventually crossed the finish line. Somehow I managed to get past the finish area without getting a finishers medal, and I'm good with that.
I'm sure that the whole issue was due to the cold weather. It was barely above freezing and the promised sunshine did not materialize. To compound that it was not a very well organized race, and we were left standing at the start line freezing our proverbial balls off for an extended period of time. The best run races always, always, start on time. It's a religion for them, and I have found it to be one of the best indicators of the overall quality of an event.
So there you have it. I don't know if you can imagine the sense of disappointment I felt at the time. When you work hard for something, and when you write an accompanying success story, and it all ends in one flashing moment it is a bit overwhelming.
I don't know what happens physiologically when a muscle cramps like this but I understand it is somehow a natural reaction intended to prevent you from further harming yourself. That's all very good if you actually listen to that warning and stop the activity. As a result of my stubbornness I don't think I'll be doing too much for the next week or so. Maybe I'll try the pool tomorrow, but no running or cycling until I can at least walk normally. In the meantime lots of RICE (rest, ice, compression, elevation).
First thing this morning. The bruising starting to show.
After taking the wrapping off this evening.
So what did I learn John? Well I guess listening to my wife may be one thing, since she warned me it was too cold for shorts. And probably I also learned that as you age you have to change the rules. I have stuck by a policy of never going to long pants until it was below freezing. Although it was bordering on zero at race start, I decided to stay with the beautiful new yellow Under Armour spandex. A decision that I now regret. From now on the rule is that I will wear long pants when it feels too cold for short ones!!
What I did not learn, and choose no to, would be the idea of not having expectations. I think that this is a necessary part of life. We need to make plans, to strive, to look forward to success, to expect the best out of ourselves, and to anticipate the pleasure of celebration.
Anyhow, in an effort to drown my sorrows I immediately started looking for another marathon to shoot for, but at this time of year they are few and far between in our area. I could go down south but that doesn't really appeal to me. So for now at least I will console myself with preparing for, and running a strong 30 kms at Around The Bay in March. I'm already signed up for it. In the normal course of Ironman preparation I would not taper for that race either, but in this case I may just make an exception.
Oh and Cathy thanks for the prayers, I'll take em But as far as teaching my loved ones goes, that probably ain't gonna happen, they're all as stubborn as me. And that goes for both sides of the family, if you get my drift!
"By three methods we may learn wisdom: First, by reflection, which is noblest; Second, by imitation, which is easiest; and third by experience, which is the bitterest."---Confucious
Love
Peter